Sometimes time just fade things so grey that you might think its gone.
Fragments of the past are the lingering shadows.
Actions of myself I didnt understand back then,
perhaps digger deeper really gave me an answer,
I might not like it but it is what it is.
My character wont change, maybe this might lead to isolation.
It doesnt matter as much as I thought it would be,
what I want, I have to get it.
I tried to overlook the fact that I have to get it,
it doesnt help. Afterall if you want me, you have to go through it.
my past is something you wont know overnight,
everyone has a way to work in to, you just have to try to find mine.
people say it takes 2 hands to make things work, yea.
you have to try a different way for me then,
if you are not willing to risk, then dont try.
afterall, suppressing myself just made me more confused.
and i dont like that. embrace.
i dont know what the future holds,
but im sure its nothing i cant handle,
nothing i cant handle as long i am who i am.
giddy
apathetic
bitchy